Friday, February 13, 2015

mid mid life crisis

ever have a mid mid life crisis? yes you read that right, no typo. I'm only 25 and lately I have been questioning everything! I am working full time in the accounting field and studying full time to receive my CPA designation. it is a ridiculous amount of work and sacrifices and I don't even know if it's what I want to do with my life!

in university I started studying criminology in an arts school, didn't love it so moved to psychology. didn't love that so switched schools and started a kinesiology degree and lo and behold I wasn't a fan of that either! then I switched departments and settled for business. I figured what the hell I had tried everything else, it was the only one left!

I was decent at the accounting courses so I stuck with those. I struggled through university. like I mean struggled! who didn't prefer going downtown on Tuesday vs studying!?

so what did I do? sign up to get my accounting designation and now I don't know anymore! I feel like every couple of months when I am struggling with something and trying just isn't cutting it I want to quit. I hate to think of myself as a quitter but sometimes I seriously think I am! I hate that part of myself. thank god for Luke who is always supportive of all my crazy ideas. I have no idea how he doesn't roll his eyes when I tell him about my next endeavor.

so what the heck is this long winded complaining post about!? I've recently signed up to be a BeachBody coach! I know, it's crazy. I think so too! I even made a facebook group claiming to all my friends and family that I am a coach and then instantly freaked out a little. I mean I'm a quitter! I quit everything! but now I'm accountable to everyone I know plus complete strangers.

I feel like this is it. this is where I turn around my quitting streak and what I think will turn around my 'wanting to quit' feeling towards my designation. everytime I get into a workout routine I feel a million times better about every aspect of my life. my work improves, studying seems bearable, and my relationships do a 360. it's almost as if once I get a little bit healthier I fall in love with everyone in my life all over again. especially Lukas. maybe I'm feeling sentimental because v-day is coming up but we'll pretend its not!

okay, I will be kicking ass at the at the 21 Day Fix and I want to invite you to join me! check out the tab at the top of my page to learn more about it!

also, if you've made it this far into the longest, wordiest post of life, leave a comment with the word poop in it. poop is always funny!


Tamara said...

pooptastic! :)

I'm familiar with Beachbody (I was a coach at one point too) and while I'm not convinced of the supplements - the workouts are definitely hardcore and will kick your butt. Good luck with it - you're going to do great!! Figuring out what you want to do with your life is hard, so give yourself a little credit. I mean, thinking about doing something for the rest of your life can be overwhelming, just focus on one day at a time and keep being awesome!

Martha Hokenson said...

Aw, I feel your pain! I'm at a point in my life where I'm questioning everything too. But thank goodness you have a supportive partner to help you soldier through it. I think asking questions is part of life and it's a good thing--it shows you're not content to just go with the flow. :)