So I'm from a small town right and you kind of know everyone in it and their kids. This morning I found out that a 19 year old boy was killed last night while working on an oil rig. And it's blowing my mind. I just can't even imagine what that family is going through. Ugh it makes me sick to my stomach.
I couldn't even fathom losing someone I love let alone one of my siblings. I know at times like this people turn to their faith and take comfort knowing that they have a god or whatever but for me it shocks me that if there is this spirit looking down over us then why would they take away a child! What's the reasoning? And ya I'm a strong believer that everything happens for a reason but when something like this happens it takes all my might to try and figure out what possible reason there could be for destroying a life. For making a poor family have to deal with this heartache for the rest of their lives.
And please believe me when I say I do not judge you or think it's silly to put all your faith into whatever god you believe in. All I ask for in return is the same respect. I think it's incredible that you have someone or thing to always have with you, to lean on when you can't stand alone anymore. It makes me jealous.
I used to believe in god. I grew up in a Christian household, went to church and religon (even taught religon for a year) and the whole nine yards. Then one day I questioned it and everything I believed in and I guess I just never went back. And like I said in a previous post, I have never really lost someone really close to me or have ever been through a tragic experience. So maybe if (hopefully not) that ever happens I will need something to help me through it and I will turn back to god.
I'm rambling now but I just feel so heartbroken for that family. The older sister of the boy was my own sister's best friend growing up so I know the family pretty well. I babysat him and his younger sister a few times too. The last time I saw him was at a party this summer and he was out celebrating his 19th birthday. He was surrounded by his friends and was having an awesome night. A part of me is glad that that is my last memory of him. I will always remember his goofy smile, his arm around his girlfriend, laughing and being the center of the party that night.
Tell someone you love them today. As soon as I found out I emailed by brother and told him to be safe at work, take care, and I loved him. You should do the same.